Changd in need

You know when a new day isnt so new ? so you know its time for a change.

That 'no reason' smile doesnt show up randomly anymore, that bright sweet smell isnt so sweet anymore, those friends and relatives arnt so excited on seeing you anymore.

Waking up feeling worse than yesterday..
Waking up only to find yourself lonely..
Waking up with no more hope to keep you awake
Waking up and feeling extremely mentally and emotionally dead.
Why wake up?

When will this just be a memory to be forgotten? Why am i the one to suffer in this fake environment?

You stay up all night trying to figure out why.. all night to understand why.. the whole night passes and you wouldnt know why.. u keep remembering those dark moments.. all you want to know is how are you going to survive this night alone ! Will you see another bright day? Will your life ever lighten up? Will i ever be happy !!??

Somewhere along the way you discover an escape route.. an escape like no other.. you hopelessly go for it.. praying for a dash of happiness just around it !! You discovered the only way out is to sit down and dream about it !

Pray for that smile.. i miss having a real one :(

A hating reason ?

Your moving towards them with optimisim and enthusiasim. Your coming to them with great passion and respect. You reach them and show love and kindness.

But do they show you the same.. do they give the same care back ? Is there fake smile pleasing you ? Is that cold welcome satisfying :/ ?

The more you shout the more people hate.. the more you fake the more we despise you.. the more you backstab the more we move forward !

You people are giving me a virtual world, a world just for me or maybe the complete exact opposite.. i dont need your pitty , your grief or even your sweet gestures.. in fact i dont need anything from you i never did ! Just let me be.. and later on you will speak of me !

Use your holy book and religious views on me for a change. Im not a devil nor am i an angel. Im just a man living an honest life.

I pray for you but you dont need my prayer. I love you eventhough you neednt the love. I still show and will always show respect ! Because thats just what everyone should do !

Disappointed is my middle name :)

I ask god.
Please show me mercy.. please.
Please guide me
Your my only savior
:(

your weaker than you think

Day in day out.. were livin but not that alive ! You cant be controlin them weak ones for years and expect much love in return.. See life has its creatures sorted.. and your just messed up n will be left at the bottom of the pecking order! I wake up every morning and see no changes..tripping right through that door not expected to be picked up, pushed into a problem with no shield on ! God help me out here ! Im no hero ? I see them fighters with their heads held up high.. thinking im gonna be like that ! But who am i kidding ? I havent got a slice of luck in my hand ! Hope and faith is my definition.. power and a throne is my destination.. will and ambition is the secret ! Luck is my only enemy ! God only has the strength to shut me down ! Im on my way.. the hard way ! I am what i am humans.. no1 has to love me.. Im gonna be okay either way ;)

Far

I Try To open up .. But There Judgemental

When Your Life Sucks This Bad .. You Cant Complain Man ;/ u cant .. its major shit
you cant share it ! you aint allowed To share it !!

So You Go Look Yourself In The Mirror ! and convince urself .. convince urself that time will change this scenario .. and u gonna be big ! your gonna rise someday ..

poeple are gonna lift there heads up to see you.. Respect , Power and A Name .. Just give it time ! Your gonna make it someday !